When I Went Back In Time
Nothing is ever good in my world. I have made hell lot of wrong decisions and they have been tremendous in magnitude. If there was a Richter scale to measure the strength of a wrong decision mine would always be 10 . My mistakes have caused as many fissures in my life as the earthquake causes on the earth and it has also brought tsunamis in the life of others .
"I wish I could go back and time and...." . This is a sentence I repeat at least 10 times a day wishing I could make everything perfect. And one day my wish came true .
I was presented with a boon , a light appeared and I went back in time to review everything that I did and to rectify anything that I want . My career decisions , my relationships , my skills and everything. I went back to each significant incident of my life and did exactly what the future me would do . I was so happy . I rectified all the wrong decisions that I made. I worked really hard and changed my life to be perfect.
It was now time come back to the present . With a broad smile on my face hoping everything is going to be perfect now and yes everything had changed to what I thought was perfect. Well it seemed so in the beginning .
Slowly I started to realize I was not the same any more . My skill set had changed I was not able to do even the simplest tasks properly . I was no more confident in work . And I did a mistake again which led to a big loss in my company . It came as a shock to me that I could not handle . I started blaming it on everyone around and created distance with everyone , my family , my friends . I could no longer handle my relationships and even small clashes of opinions turned into big fights. I wasn't able to understand why ? I had perfected everything . I had made all right decisions , then why ? Why wasn't I able to handle my life?
The light then re-appeared and showed me every mistake and every lesson that I took from the mistake . Every wrong decision had made me learn a lesson , it had made me what I was today but since I went back in time to make the decisions correct I erased from my life every lesson learnt. Coming back to present though everything had changed I still was bound to make mistakes. But my lessons , my learning were no longer with me to help me handle the situations .
It was then I realized how important every decision , every experience of life is to build you they way you are. I closed my eyes and accepted myself the way I am . I knew I couldn't change anything and I did not want to . I accepted the fate and decided to live with every decision I made , to learn from it and move forward . I would not curse my past self for making wrong decisions I would thank her for making me learn everything that I know today . I would love her , myself and the future me .
I woke up with a jolt and realized all this was just a dream but this dream had taught me a lesson for the life. There is no failure - only feedback.
Slowly I started to realize I was not the same any more . My skill set had changed I was not able to do even the simplest tasks properly . I was no more confident in work . And I did a mistake again which led to a big loss in my company . It came as a shock to me that I could not handle . I started blaming it on everyone around and created distance with everyone , my family , my friends . I could no longer handle my relationships and even small clashes of opinions turned into big fights. I wasn't able to understand why ? I had perfected everything . I had made all right decisions , then why ? Why wasn't I able to handle my life?
The light then re-appeared and showed me every mistake and every lesson that I took from the mistake . Every wrong decision had made me learn a lesson , it had made me what I was today but since I went back in time to make the decisions correct I erased from my life every lesson learnt. Coming back to present though everything had changed I still was bound to make mistakes. But my lessons , my learning were no longer with me to help me handle the situations .
It was then I realized how important every decision , every experience of life is to build you they way you are. I closed my eyes and accepted myself the way I am . I knew I couldn't change anything and I did not want to . I accepted the fate and decided to live with every decision I made , to learn from it and move forward . I would not curse my past self for making wrong decisions I would thank her for making me learn everything that I know today . I would love her , myself and the future me .
I woke up with a jolt and realized all this was just a dream but this dream had taught me a lesson for the life. There is no failure - only feedback.
Perfect life is not about making zero mistakes , Its about making your mistakes , falling down , having the courage to get up and move forward, rise above that mistake and make new ones to learn more about life. Life is all about evolution.
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Divya
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